Hawaii

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Life during pandemic has been so tough for everyone including me.

I find myself working to my max and one day it'll shut down without warning. Today, I had to take half day off, slept in longer than usual just to calm myself down.

I had a dream, I woke up in a beautiful villa in Hawaii. The villa was overlooking beautiful mountain with deep lush greeneries and beautiful sea on the other side.

I was happy, taking in the fact that I 'live' there and I have left everything behind where I'm no longer tied to my previous life. 

Here's the dark catch. I tried to capture the moment with my camera, struggling to find the right angle for the view and accidentally fell into the swimming pool in villa. Fyi, I don't know how to swim. Classic. I woke up from my dream when I was on the brink of drowning.

I'm tired of not winning in both life and my dream. Am I being ungrateful? Maybe yes. I need good news in my life.

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