I'm tired.
Trigger warning: This post is full of negativity, frustration, depression, stress and anxiety. Please stop here if you don't want it to affect you. ...... It's first day of Eid today, and if I am being honest, I don't feel an ounce of happiness about it at all. And I'm not exaggerating a single bit. I stopped feeling the joy of Eid since my beloved grandma died 6 years ago. This year is tough for me, I bet it's tough for everyone else too. But I'm here to talk about me, as I don't know how to let it out to my actual people (family/friends). Work has been overwhelming, and it's taking a toll on me. I was supposed to take unpaid leave to get better but instead I've been given loads and responsibilities which I don't know if I'm capable of. I've tried to let out my worry about work to my colleague because I thought my colleague from my unit will understand it. Big mistake. I was brushed off because she said it was the same case for everyone ...